Lk600

Hello frieends! I got something major that I really need to get off my chest as a lot has been going on in my life and I'm being more open to the people I trust and love. Many of you know me as female, even know my name as Amy. I want to be more open about this as I kept this a secret because it was the only way I could be the real me was online. In the real world, I was male. My real name was Luke and I was a 19 year old boy from the UK. However... with the help from my family and friends, I'm able to become the true person I am on the inside. Amy. I hope you're not upset with me keeping this a secret and really hope I've not made any of you uncomfortable with me. Nothing has to change at all, I just want to be honest with you all! I'm feeling so much better about myself now that I've been able to come out with this. For so long I would be scared that showing the real me would be rejected by the people I love. So there we go! Trembling while typing this up, but I need to do this. Amy <3

Kinda' didn't put this up to stir up anything about Chair rp... or ERP. >.> But... guess its nice seeing you guys again too?.. right? :/

Hey, Lk here! Over half of you will most likely not have a clue who I am but, seeing as I've not been on for almost a year now, but I guess I should have done this when I l̶o̶s̶t̶ ̶i̶n̶t̶e̶r̶e̶s̶t̶... no... that's not right... put off playing on Aurora and disappeared. I was with Aurora on startup. It was nice. Not so large population but enough for good role play, all with the same'ish' like minded taste to RP. Relatively long rounds with Extended being the round picked over anything else. More and more players showed up, meaning more people to talk to and more characters to discover and watch develop. It all came towards the, what I would call apex of enjoyment from Aurora. I had so much fun with my characters and got way more development on them than I had form any other Role Play server. Then the issues came up. New players started showing up who were new to Role play. Nothing wrong there at all, don't get me wrong! We were all new once. But, when new players who had been playing for a few weeks had not improved at all were still on the server, It did get to me a little. I can't take drama. Being open and honest, I get anxiety attacks and take a lot to heart what then goes on to me going into depressive stages. I suck with antaging and can't stand it when a good calm round is ruined because my character was just ganked by some wizard or the station is suddenly nuked/ate by Nar'sie. More and more people showed up and were always voting for Secret rounds, Nuke ops, cult. The less time I got to play on the server because Extended became less often. This then came to some of my friends on the server starting to disappear because of the same reasons. Slowly, it came to the point where I was getting more let down and becoming upset when in the lobby of Aurora than I did character development and enjoyment in the game. Other people. I'm not doing this thread to point out anyone or to say that Aurora is bad and horrid... but I have been hurt a lot for being open in ooc and speaking out when I got upset. The worse of it was when my really in depth characters were being criticized. If you do know me, you will know that there are two unique characters I had, Amy Tilley and Anna Rose. Both live in a hospital for mental issues and are assistance on the station as a way of getting them integrated into society again. This is normal in the real world too, coming from first hand experience. It hurt me when people who never had any In character exposure to my characters saying, "Mental people wont be working on a station." A bit ironic to say however when there were so many other characters who were murderers and openly off the chart with insanity. I left soon after that, hoping that after the summer and winter breaks the server would die down again and become fun to play on. I'm wanting to get back in on the server again as I miss it all. I miss the role play and character development. Life for me at the moment is up and down and role play is an awesome way for me to just ignore everything. Just... my play space is not fun to go to anymore. Feeling bad, not slept, want to just open up a little bit (people who don't know me?.. I'm rarely open.) Take what you want from this, its just me finally saying what has been on my mind all this time and I'm soo not putting this up as a way of 'shitposting' or to trigger anyone. Love Lk <3 ^-^

Turn the Bridge into like... a 'proper' Bridge. Star Trek that sheeet!

Yay Blueee! Well... other than the hate for Skrell... I guess... but still! +1