Permanent Ban Appeal - FireNightPower

[FireNightPower]

BYOND Key: FireNightPower
Total Ban Length: Permanent
Banning staff member's Key: alberyk
Reason of Ban: Grief (End-Of-Round; EORG)
Reason for Appeal:
I'd like to come as clean, and as thorough as held respectful to my own distinct circumstance in relinquishing an image of myself left on the server. That overall in consideration of my agreement to the server, as a matter of a record as gracious as what can be viewed as being above-average to a value of ban/warn-count, that there is no single excuse in any frame of sight. That I reap the seeds that I sow in simply choosing to appropriate myself into your hierarchy orchestrated by an organization going beyond the entirety of my own history on the client, to ignore a sense of restraint.

I collectively apologize for a matter of my behavior throughout all of the years that I've existed on this server, and the weight that I allowed on my record when I chose to be so bold to assure of my own innocence.

I do not know the entirety of the framework, or history of this server, nor do you know who it is that I could be; generally my record is a reflection of that, and most of the administration upturns their nose at me when they lean to hear: 'Willy Whirlow', 'Wayne Schoeffler', 'FireNightPower', 'SpankMan', 'BigManSpankMan'. 'RocksTheCaspah', or otherwise. I wish to be a friend of the server. To you, and likewise to myself, it's like hearing from one of the town drunks who talks so liberally to the extent that it's of no moral discipline. Nevertheless I'd just like everyone to understand that morphine isn't me (I was on it for an injury), my antics are just left up to a stimulus of abstract exploration with sometimes proper and sometimes improper execution, and that I don't mean any harm--I wish to learn and better myself to appeal to the interest and flow of the community.

When I was 15 and playing I felt no regulation, and I felt as though I didn't exactly feel as though an honor was warranted. When I was 17 I felt that there were others to enjoy the game, however the other end of my mind always kicked in to where I made a half-assed joke leading to a warning or an eventual reprimand. And now, sitting here at the age of 19, I'd wish to dedicate a full honor to all forms of constructiveness, a maintenance of relative hierarchy among the server, principles of overall cohesion among a progressive atmosphere, to publish design therapy to those requiring icon assets, to deliver equations of program procedure to enable a refinement of established systems in applying all forms of scientific phenomena reflecting into machinery, and to assist with a forever continuity of a kaleidoscopic capability towards all needs oriented among a binary stratosphere.

I do not come to you here as a matter of sitting with my hands empty, and towards the bowl of your children. I came to this forum again as a factor of simply desiring to apologize, and to at least be able to salvage anything as apart of the time I put into the server. To at least come to some form of salvation as a matter of the stains I left on the experience of the player-base, the administration, and it's effect of portraying a world among a world of infinite possibility.

I'm not going to request that I be unbanned, but that I be considered to at least be observed as I get involved in the forum to talk with members of the community, to that is relate an interest to the game, and what can be held as constructive to the lore after taking preliminary readings to find any form of means to assist. I want to find if there's any access point to rehabilitation no matter those that look down on me rhetorically for a late night schism of debilitating injury, that simultaneously compromised the terms of the ban being lifted and the connotations that come along with the fact of the issue at hand.

I made a grave mistake. It's on top of many, but I only have so much longer to live before I can actually see, and grasp that I can help what's been left on my name. I don't want to live the rest of my life in having been a Cockalorum Cowabunga Oogly Doodly Ring-Around-The-Rosy and Ryan Seacrested Plaque of a Bad Time. I just want everyone to know that I'm sorry.

However, I do wonder to myself if there really is any place on this Earth, in this Space of All-Time, in manifestation of fractal patterns ranging beyond the prism of light into the source of what is, that can ever allow me to truly express a scale of apology that can remedy the ill-ooze that I squeezed onto the server. That will allow me to at the very least work my way back up in your community, to do any good and bountiful thing in your community ever again.

Edited March 1, 2022 by FireNightPower

[Peppermint]

I am never lifting this ban. You have had too many chances and insulting another staff member for zero reason after it has ensured that.

 

Appeal denied.