Alexanderself1

Ahelp, yes. I didn’t know this was a situation that I should have ahelped tbh, I assumed ic problem would need an ic solution. Apologies in that regard. the button on the other hand- I know nothing of Aurora med, but I’m pretty sure I was too brain damaged to press the button or interact with consoles, It was giving me some line about drooling and looking at them dumbly

The reason I died in the bridge and not way off where my lungs actually popped (either returning from or going to a derelict I believe) was because I was actively fighting to last long enough to send a distress signal- I had done the syringe reinflate stuff and made my way the bridge- only to find in horror as I tried to click on things that I got some line about drooling and wondering what the button was or how it worked. Expunged or rewritten, depending on the verdict of this conversation. My qualm mostly lays with the warning stating that I did it to leave the round, as that was not the case. Shooting myself was the last defiant act of a man who had been robbed of any chance of life, by lack of nearby help and lack of response to hailing as I made my way from the shuttle to the bridge attempting to light off my distress signal, only to arrive and find my brain was so damaged from lack of oxygen that I couldn’t even comprehend what the button was.

BYOND Key: Alexanderself1 Staff BYOND Key: Game ID: unlabeled Reason for complaint: I received a warning for killing myself as a freebooter captain to leave the round. There was two rounds where I did kill myself as a freebooter. One of them was directly a gun in my mouth because I had popped my lungs and was on my own and got brain damage so bad I couldn’t even distress call. The second I accidentally spaced myself because I am notoriously unlucky as a freebooter for some reason. At this point my history paints an obvious picture of me as unreliable and this is just a warning and not a ban so at the end of the day I’m not looking to argue, I just genuinely didn’t kill myself to escape the round. Evidence/logs/etc: Additional remarks: Asked loorey how to have discussion about a warning, was told this is the way to go.

I understand that I am on thin ice (and that I deserve to be). In any scenario where I question if what I’m doing is allowed, I’ll ahelp. Pray, because even when I’m not an antag I’m normally blowing up ahelp with questions so I can’t imagine what it’ll be like if I’m an antag again!

BYOND Key: Alexanderself1 Total Ban Length: Permanent Banning staff member's Key: Evandorf Reason of Ban: Attempted to breach the bridge and approached command without any RP or words said between them. When found by security soon after began a fight with officers all without words said or RP provided. Given the extent of previous bans and warnings I will be reapplying the antag ban. Reason for Appeal: tl;dr my entire thought process- I did fail to establish proper rp for the initial encounters. I wasn’t ready or prepared to rp with command, I was prepared to wing rp as I went. That isn’t what I should have done and I sure as hell know that now. On the other hand, I do still believe security didn’t really give me a chance to fix my mistakes in the end, as I wasn’t given enough time to say anything before being shot at between the “get down” and the “BLAM BLAM BLAM BLAM.” I’m making this a ban appeal and not staff complaint because my own inability to properly convey why I believed I wasn’t entirely in the wrong back then isn’t the admins fault, and I am sorry about my failure to be an engaging antagonist before the incident with security. I have dreams of being a better antag, both for my enjoyment and my fellow players enjoyment. and frankly, I hope I’m a better person then I was back then. Very self absorbed and dumb, no clue about the experience of those around me.

My mind is going to be consumed by the Dionae lore I’m shoving down my esophagus, this can be closed. My return to the antags will come another day

BYOND Key: Alexanderself1 Character Names: Abdul El-Rehman, Batti Pennington Species you are applying to play: Dionae Have you read our lore section's page on this species?: Yes Why do you wish to play this specific race: I like their concept and I’m growing better at rp and I like what the dionae have to offer in that aspect. Their different mechanics and their different social structure and way of thinking.The dionae are truly alien which is why they interest me. Identify what makes role-playing this species different than role-playing a Human: (One Paragraph minimum) They are essentially multiple minds in one body, except any one mind can split off at any point and take it’s body which is actually the diona’s arm. They can learn through drinking blood, which is how many learn the languages they speak or even gain sentience. They have mind-types which essentially dictates how the collective cyclops colony of nymphs operates (which ones speak, which ones make decisions). They can’t run and they move slowly. Older dionae have higher pain tolerance and are slower than younger weaker dionae. Depending on the mindtype, the Dionae might speak with pauses, or speak like it’s all voices at once. Character Name: The Bearer of Chronicles to Spread the Glory of Stories Please provide a short backstory for this character (Approximately two paragraphs) Forming into a cyclops form consisting of 7 nymphs in the capital city of United, CT-EUM, on 03-03-48, Bearer was fed the blood of an elderly Skrell librarian and thus absorbed a great love for books and knowledge. Over the next 15 years Bearer wandered United speaking to Skrell tourists and fellow Dionae and gathering their stories, where he then wrote them down for the Skrell Librarian, who taught the Dionae to spread knowledge to everyone, as the Librarian taught Bearer that ignorance leads to pain. When the Skrell died in 2463 Bearer tried to gain ownership of the great library they had formed together, but it was claimed by the Skrell’s son, who had not spoken to the librarian in many years. Remembering their mentors teachings, the Dionae chose to leave United and the CT-EUM and join the SCC as a librarian aboard the SCCV Horizon, where they plan to gather stories from everyone they can and write as many of them down as they can to one day own a library as grand as they were raised in. What do you like about this character? (Describe what you like about this character I have a growing love for writing roles (investigator, chap, librarian, journalist) because even if I’m not within speaking distance of someone I can now have papers or newscasts for the crew to experience what I create. I plan on writing books as this Dionae that’ll be uploaded to the library archive and I will bring attention to the library with a cool Dionae librarian. This Dionae is young and only knows what they absorbed from tourists in United, so I’ll get to get a lot of rp where I essentially ask “what’s that” one round and get to talk about it the next round when I’m writing. How would you rate your role-playing ability? It’s rapidly improving from what it once was. I hate to admit defeat but perhaps my antag ban was for the better. 7/10. Notes: TSWGSMME is a harmonious hymn mindtype, edited to add this part but I’m more of a subscriber to the GRRM gardening form of writing and thus this is a very basic outline of what the charachter will eventually turn into over time on the station, and as other players ask me questions in game I’ll come up with an answer and add that to my Google doc of lore

Just to confirm we are just waiting for a ruling on this right? I’m pretty accepting of the ban at this point since Has been said since it’s at least a chance at being antag again eventually,

This is valid, tbh. I hate to be permabanned from antag but that’s a pretty correct statement. At first when I started here I obviously had the issue with dc’ing on capture but now I try to sit through the (admittedly extremely slow, boring, and fruitless) capture+ time in medical+ brig time and get rp in where I can, mostly when sec is charging me or when I’m sitting in the brig and there’s ANYONE nearby, but I can’t say I’ve ever made moves to ensure that even on capture I can escape the brig even if it would of went awry this time as well. With the expanded knowledge, is it possible to pull any logs from the round? I’ve slept now so any knowledge I had retained is long gone now. i wanna say that I asked/told them to stay back/step back when we were in deck 3 maints, and then they approached anyway which from my pov was seen as “okay they’re coming in right now fully armed it’s about to go bad they do not want to talk this out even after I made the attempt to ask them to stay out there so we could talk” When I pulled out the esword after they wordlessly attacked Strong, which yes you’ve stated that was a bad move from them and there was a ticket, I couldn’t know that at that time, all I knew is that as far as security saw it they were good to gun us down so when security came chasing me and shooting I attacked back. when I was caught near the merchants ship and died I was moving towards the merchant ship to add a layer of rp there since yeah this had mostly been a bloodbath up until this point and I was going to try to rp with sec there, where they can’t just shoot me directly in the face instantly. we have the power here of knowing, generally, what happened on every side from every angle. I didn’t have that power in game. I saw sec who made no attempt to open communications with me besides “get down on the ground” and I didn’t get any bargaining chips from the bridge in the form of an object or a hostage. I told sec to stay back and they went to move in anyway, causing me to retaliate. I watched Strong get gunned down and ran, where I was also getting shot at, so I defended myself. I ran to the merchants ship to charge my shield belt to get some words out aboard their ship before they started shooting at me again, and got caught and died, wordlessly but that was because I was in the process of running from lazer fire towards a ship that was a whole sideways n shape away from me.

I’m beginning to lose track of things so we have a. The command situation lacking RP, that was because the command situation barely got to exist, I was within talking range of them for mere moments. b. The third dec maints situation, this is debatably the only time that I could of rp’d with sec, but they did also approach me before I electrocuted bolted and crushed the dude with the door which was movement to arrest me and since one of them said to go in I assumed that meant they were about to take us both down c. The time close to sec entrance where strong got gunned down with no rp from either side where strong and I stood there and one officer just shot strong down so I ran

I was standing there, trying to think what to type when we were in the brig by the entrance and Strong got gunned down- Sec told us to get down, me and Robert did absolutely nothing besides stand there, I can’t speak for strong but presumably he was waiting for someone to say something that could elicit any rp or also thinking of something to say, when they started blasting him repeatedly. I didn’t even get back into maint until after he was downed because I was waiting for the door hacking timer, so in however much time that takes they told us to get down, then started blasting Strong with enough shots to down him. This isn’t aggressive, this is a genuine question, are there times where you want antags to stand there and get shot because they have to try to rp even if sec wastes 3 seconds saying get down before blasting? Why is it entirely on the antag to rp something when they are getting arrested and not sec asking questions like “why are you doing this?” Or “what do you want?” I want to follow your antag rules, I really like playing antag here, I just feel like there’s something I’m not understanding about the sec-antag interaction that happens every game I’ve seen. What escalation did sec do that permits them, ooc, to start blasting? Would a whisper to Strong of “here we go” been enough? When sec finds us planning in maints, pulls out there large array of weaponry, and demands we get down, was I supposed to start typing or stay still and wait for something to happen like Strong did and got gunned down? If I rest, they’ll sweep in and arrest us and we won’t even be able to hold anything while down, game over. If we try to talk, they start shooting, we spend 30 minutes in surgery and then the rest in brig, game over. From an OOC perspective, a game over isn’t that bad, but you want RP, so ic, to me and Strong, it wasn’t “if we lay down we get arrested, game over” it was “if we lay down, we die. Our lives will be over, and we will be forgotten. Our families will go on without us.”

I believe I tried sign language in deck 3 mainly because I didn’t want to speak and reveal who I was, to my knowledge they thought it was the priest, but that was when I was with sec. When I went to the bridge they saw me while I was hacking the door, I took a step back, went back and hacked it again, and when I got in they were going through the comms door so I never got to catch up to them and thus just left with no access. I managed to find my way towards Strong who was in the recreational garden area growing ambrosia and got him to follow me into maint under chapel near the airlock. I was going to murder him and put the suit on him but last second he revealed he was a tator too so we worked together. I shocked myself with the door and that created a panic rp where me and Strong had to act like I didn’t hurt myself shocking a door with both the intrepid expedition that I stole medical supplies from and with medical, where I freaked out about surgery because of the chance they’d see my stuff and explained it away as me being scared of scalpels. If I had managed to take anyone hostage on the bridge I would of rp’d with them for a decent while before killing them or leaving with them, both of which result in sec asking me what I want and then me giving demands via the not-dead-yet hostage or with a note on the hostages body as I have done many times before. The only reason there wasn’t rp with sec is both A. Their rapid response time, it was kinda impressive how fast they were all on us and we couldn’t get out without killing someone or surrendering which, as stated above, is pretty much game over for tators B. If I did say something in sign language as I believe I tried to do, no one takes sign language as a language (sigh) and they didn’t notice. On another note, like the other day I was asking about doing some stuff to set up a trap for an unathi hos in Xenoarch that was fully intended to kill them, and the admins response was that because they are after me, it’s pretty much good to go. I understood that because if sec doesn’t have to do any rp at this point that should go both ways, but from my recent antag rounds it seems like even when sec is at the point where they can go “lay down” and if they don’t instantly get down they can open fire, the same thing doesn’t apply to antags.

BYOND Key: Alexanderself1 Staff BYOND Key: Evandorf Game ID: cmM-cIXz Reason for complaint: I was banned for "Attempted to breach the bridge and approached command without any RP or words said between them. When found by security soon after began a fight with officers all without words said or RP provided. Given the extent of previous bans and warnings I will be reapplying the antag ban." I'm open to conversation about it but I wasn't present for the ban. All I know is that its hard to RP with sec when they immediately open fire and demand you get on the ground. Once your arrested as a tator your done, and Command didn't even give me a chance to talk to them before they were gone. I was spotted by command before I managed to enter the main bridge room and when I did they were exiting through telecomms. I was going to hold them hostage then disappear before sec arrived after scanning the captains ID for access. I then went to kill Robert Strong and plant the evidence on him, but he turned out to be a tator as well so we ended up working together. I RP'd with med, I RP'd with Strong, I would of loved to of RP'd with command but it just didnt go that way. I had no chance to RP with sec because they found me, surrounded me, ordered me to lay down, and I can't just get arrested when Im trying to maintain a secret identity and not get caught so I tried to run. I got caught again later trying to recharge my shield belt and gunned down when I was trying to reach the merchant ship and add in a layer of RP with the fact their ship is technically not beisellite space and try to get some immunity to go to their station and leave the ship. Evidence/logs/etc: Additional remarks: Perhaps after your side is explained to me I will understand, but Sec didn't try to RP with me besides "get down", waiting two seconds, and then unloading into Strong while he stood still presumably typing or waiting for the situation to develop.

BYOND Key: Alexanderself1 Total Ban Length: Permanent Banning staff member's Key: Wicked_Cybs Reason of Ban: You have again given suspicious reasoning as to why you need to leave whenever you're going to be caught or are caught as an antag. I like to give people the benefit of the doubt, but that history along with you taking your time in dchat after cryoing to just chat with people instead of doing the urgent unspecified thing you swore to me you had to leave for was strange. This comes with an antag ban, please appeal on the fourm if you feel you can offer me a better explanation. I now have control over when i leave, which is what lead to my ban to begin with. If I do have to leave, I know to ahelp, get permission, cryo, then disconnect so theres no question about my honesty. I'm gonna hop in and reintegrate myself with the server and any changes that may of occurred, but I know unban requests take quite long so I am posting this now in the hope that itll be seen in the coming days or weeks.

A. I love “smack him with a stick or something.” B. Your right, one of those notes is definitely important here but the first one in that list states I did nothing wrong and, from my understanding of adminning, is more for if it’s a recurring event there is proof that I was already talked to about it. The second one is about me admittedly malding in LOOC because I hate how ling is, both for security and the antag. I was definitely still malding during the adminpm, but I did understand and correct my behavior. I wish there was more to that third note. I don’t remember an adminPM about this since I got unbanned until the ban by Wicked. I can’t explain something I admittedly dont remember, so I won’t try to defend myself there. I can’t see all my notes, but from what I know most of them are from like 1-2 years ago, starting out really bad and getting down to the little things. I think that shows growth. Yeah, I was horrible, but I’m learning not to be. C. I wasn’t getting caught when I cryo’d in the round wicked banned me. Security had begun to search maintenance for the weapon but completely skipped security maintenance, which is where the evidence was. I had lamented this in DChat before wicked adminPM’d me. I was worried I would have to do another crime and raise the situations escalation and potentially cause too much violence, like I had been warned not to do before, but wished I could stay for the “it was me all along” moment.