Autopsy of a Moderator Application

[Frances]

Two days ago, Skull replied to the mod app I made at the beginning of April, turning it down. After a short exchange, I took it upon myself to contact him and try to figure out exactly what caused my app to be thrown out; whether inefficiency in the selection process was at the cause, or if the staff themselves had issues with my candidacy.

This is the result of this conversation, and I would like to share it with others.

http://pastebin.com/pjiuSU4F

 

There's no tl;dr, here. If you're interested in the way online communities are run, or in my case in particular, I would encourage you to simply read the whole log. However, there is one part in particular that I think I'd wish to highlight.

 

• [31/05/2015 2:59:22 PM] Frances: honestly, all I've ever done is follow people
  
  [31/05/2015 2:59:44 PM] Frances: I adapt to others, that's what I do best, I even have a habit of matching the speech patterns and general mood of people I'm talking to
  
  [31/05/2015 3:00:18 PM] Frances: what I tried to do as a headmin was to follow and amplify an already undergoing current
  
  [31/05/2015 3:00:31 PM] Frances: people wanted to do certain things, so I encouraged them, pushed their ideas, built upon them
  
  [31/05/2015 3:00:53 PM] Frances: I'm a terribly unimaginative person, what I excel at doing is building upon the work of others, not laying down the groundwork myself
  
  [31/05/2015 3:01:05 PM] Frances: -so-
  
  [31/05/2015 3:01:45 PM] Frances: I believe the reason why this happened is because people already had a certain disposition towards being "srs bsns" with aurora
  
  [31/05/2015 3:02:31 PM] Frances: at first things were too lax - you had geneticists hulking themselves for shits and giggles, bald psychiatrists leaving notes with the sole content of "DICK FART" to their friends, basically a whole ton of chucklefucking that wasn't particularly funny or clever
  
  [31/05/2015 3:03:13 PM] Frances: the administration started cracking down on that, and I saw what I believe to be a reactionary current, which ended up pushing too far
  
  [31/05/2015 3:03:50 PM] Frances: I didn't leave at the height of it, but I started becoming inactive at the height of it, because I wasn't too sure what to do with what happened and I felt like there was no "right" solution, only what people wanted and people couldn't agree on what they wanted
  
  [31/05/2015 3:04:00 PM] Frances: it was an impass for me and the server pretty much needed to sort this out
  
  [31/05/2015 3:04:20 PM] Frances: I was also planning on leaving for personal reasons
  
  [31/05/2015 3:04:35 PM] Frances: and that was the /main/ reason why I left, I would've probably stayed and tried to see things through otherwise
  
  [31/05/2015 3:05:05 PM] Frances: -anyway-
  
  [31/05/2015 3:05:17 PM] Frances: I guess I understand why this is happening, then
  
  [31/05/2015 3:05:28 PM] Frances: I was the figurehead and the scapegoat for that movement
  
  [31/05/2015 3:05:45 PM] Frances: even if I've said myself that I want the staff to be friendlier, more open, and more lax
  
  [31/05/2015 3:05:50 PM] Frances: I can't expect people to really care
  
  [31/05/2015 3:06:11 PM] Frances: I would've liked them to, a lot of people on staff were people who I saw as level-headed and reasonable
  
  [31/05/2015 3:06:34 PM] Frances: and I'm sorta sad if their impression of me is that I want to come back and be the headmin that'll bring the server back to something they don't want it to be
  
  [31/05/2015 3:06:43 PM] Frances: even if all I wanted to do was /enable/ people's ideas
  
  [31/05/2015 3:06:49 PM] Frances: but others never saw that
  
  [31/05/2015 3:06:53 PM] Frances: I don't blame them
  
  [31/05/2015 3:07:04 PM] Frances: I really don't

 

I'm not really sharing this with any particular intent or agenda. The one request I have is to not throw Skull under the bus (please), because he's been very busy, and I don't think he can be held at fault for much of what happened.

That's about it, I guess. I'll do my best to stick around and reply to people in this thread, participate in conversation if there's any to be had.

[Chaznoodles]

Seems to me like you're playing the victim here.

[Frances]

Seems to me like you're playing the victim here.

Care to expand?