moderator [Denied] Moderator Application - Dr. Farson

[Dr. Farson]

Basic Information
Byond Account:

Dr. Farson

Character Name(s):

Alexander Farson, Cameron Davidson, George Novak (these are the only three I actually Play)

AI Name(s):

I do not play AI.

Discord username + tag:

4th Dimensional Being#6299

Age:

17

Timezone:

Central Time (Canada)

When are you on Aurora?:

Generally anywhere from 1200 or 1300 hours to 1700 or 1900 hours.

Experience
How long have you played SS13?:

About 3.5-4 years now, since early 2018.

How long have you played on Aurora:

I've been playing aurora since I started playing SS13.

How much do you know about SS13 (Baystation build) game mechanics?:

I've played on Baystation and Aurora for some time, and am familiar with some, but not all of the game mechanics. I still have quite a bit to learn, and I'm looking forward to learning more things about the game as time goes on.

Do you have any experience moderating for an SS13 server?:

I do. I was a trialmin on NSV13, which is a combat simulation server. I remained a member of the trialmin team for a while, but I was eventually dismisesd due to what they cited as: "My eagerness to push buttons." I am happy to say I've learned from this experience, now realising that I should observe more, and do less. I think I've come a long way in this regard, and I've worked on it ever since I've received my feedback. If it does help, I have been moderator and admin on multiple discord roleplay servers, so I do have experience in helping to solve conflicts, and excersising restraint.

Have you read through the criteria thread; https://forums.aurorastation.org/viewtopic.php?f=27&t=4198 - and believe that you mark off all the criteria?:

I have, and I think I am particularly good at keeping my cool, and knowing my limits. I understand the rules, and I understand how to use reason and logic to guide my actions.

Have you ever been banned, and if so, how long and why?:

Yes, I have. There is a bit of story behind this, so I will begin here. When I began playing aurorastation, I was not a very good roleplayer, or good at the game. The server was my introduction to roleplay, and I hadn't really gotten into it fully before then. The two bans I had were one for validhunting, and one for acting out of resonable behavior for my character. The validhunting ban was quite a while ago, and can be summarised as follows:

I failed to read the text from a vampire that states that my character would not remember what happened, and then due to my parents coming into the room consistently, and me being inattentive, I was uncooperative with staff. While this is not an excuse, and does not justify my behavior, I feel it is important to say that I was going through a difficult time in my life. Not only was I dealing with parents who didn't approve of my hobby, but I was also dealing with emotional problems and medication changes.
Long story short, they would interrupt me and turn off my internet whenever they felt like it, leading to me consistently disconnecting when staff were talking to me. 

The more recent ban, which I recall being about a year ago, was because I began to bash my character's head in with a cane. I had invested myself too much in my character, and when something happened in-round that upset me greatly, I decided to try to have my character commit suicide with a cane. It probably didn't help that I didn't take any of my medication that day either.

I want everyone to know that I regret my actions deeply, and I've lost sleep over many of them. I also recognise that I am not the person I was then, and that I will continue to work on improving myself.

Personality
Why do you play SS13?:

I play SS13 because I enjoy the game, and because it provides a way to de-stress after a hard day of school and work. I love the community, especially on Aurora, and I love the gameplay. It's practically the only game I play now.

Why do you play on Aurora?:

I play on aurora becuase it's the first server I've ever played on, and because the community is awesome. I love to roleplay, and I find that the game is incredibly fun for a variety of reasons. I enjoy interacting with other members of the community, and seeing how I can develop character interactions. 

I owe my entire SS13 journey to Aurora, and I'm especially pleased with it because, no matter what I did, someone was there to help. I wouldn't have kept on playing the game if it wasn't for this server, and it's community.

What do moderators do?:

A moderator is someone who helps to ensure that everyone enjoys the game. They help to resolve conflicts, and work with other staff members to make the game interesting and fun for the rest of the players. Not only that, but they help new players get accustomed to the game, and give advice on what is appropriate in any given situation. 

What does it mean to be a moderator for our server?:

Here's what I understand. Being a moderator for the Aurorastation Server is about teamwork. It's about making sure players get along, and making sure the round is interesting for everyone involved. Additionally, it's about working together to create an atmosphere that's condusive for roleplay and character development. You need to know how to talk to people, you need to be active, and you need to be willing to make the community a better place. 

Why do you want to be a moderator?:

I want to be a moderator to give back to the community that's helped me develop so much. I want to contribute at least something back to the community that's taught me about how to interact with people. More importantly, I want to be part of a team, one that cares about the community and cares about the game itself. I've graduated high-school, and if it weren't for this server, I wouldn't be pursuing a career in psychology. I owe many of my passions to this game, and I hope that I can contribute back.

What qualities do you possess that would make you a good moderator?:

I'm happy to lend a helping hand whenever possible. I'm nice, but firm, and I'm a reasonable person when it comes to resolving conflict. I like to consider myself a disciplined person now, and I'm passionate about the game. I'm good with people, and I'm always eager to learn something new, but I remain observant so as not to be too eager. I've been known amongst my peers to keep a cool head in situations, and to not let my emotions get the better of me.

How well do you handle stress, anger, or insults?:

I've been throught therapy, so I'm fairly familiar with many ways of dealing with stress and anger. I feel that I'm a disciplined person, given my past, and that I'm effective at managing my anger and my stress. Things on the internet don't really upset me all that much anymore, and I've come to realise that people do things on the intenet they wouldn't do in real life. I've accepted that there's no reason I should be upset by what goes on on the internet, because it has no bearing on my real life. 

Anything Else You Want to Add: I'd like to say that my understanding of my history, and how I've learned form it, is my biggest strength. I understand that I've come a long way, and I understand how I've done that. If it weren't for my past, I would never have learned, or become the person I am today. I'd like to thank the aurora community for everythign they've taught me.

[Flamingo]

After discussing with the applicant, I will be denying this application. If you have any further comments, questions, or concerns, you can contact me directly on discord (Flamingo#5454).

 

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