[Denied] A.I.M.M.O.s Unban request.

[A.I.M.M.O.]

BYOND Key: AIMMO
Total Ban Length: Perma-Ban
Banning staff member's Key: Aboshehab
Reason of Ban: 
Reason for Appeal: 
Things to get out of the way beforehand : I am aware of the "No chance of appeal" in the message above, If all I get is an swift deletion of this post that is a fair response. However the one basis pushing me to consider this is that my permaban for the entire matter was immediate and lacking any warnings, timed bans or such, which by the server rules are supposed to occur beforehand (unless a permaban is done to force player-staff interaction). There was no chance for me to show change or improvements on my behavior before the permanent ban. I do understand there are times where Staff may decide to act outside of Rules however.

Since this Ban has been cast a while ago, here is the link to a Staff complaint I wrote in response to ban. Today I can clearly see why the decision was made in the way it was made, from the info I have at least, the complaint does not reflect my current thoughts on the matter or Aboshehab, but might help with assessing the information as it has more details than I can get together anymore. I however cant access the post itself anymore, so I dont know what is exactly written in it.  https://forums.aurorastation.org/topic/14885-staff-complaint-aboshehab/#comment-140690

Reflecting on my actions and behavior:
It has roughly been a year since I was banned from Aurora. A year since I started looking more carefully at the way I have played my characters on the Aurora. A year since I got disgusted with my lack of self reflection and how poorly I must have been reading others. A year of reminding myself in shame what behaviors of my characters i reasoned or tweaked towards what I wanted, not what would be the best in general. Ofcourse looking that far back one will always be clouded by lack of memory and what one wishes to remember. What I do clearly remember is that when I got the message I was shocked. I was on Aurora for many years and only had gotten into minor troubles, never having received a temporary, antag or job-ban. I considered myself a good player, with faults sure, but nothing I couldnt work on if it becomes a problem.

Thats why the instant ban shocked me. I was initially in denial about it. What seemed impossible to me was that this had occured without me noticing how i come off to others. That there were no warnings of any kind, nobody approached me on the topic, that the issue was so great and sudden that immediate action was the only reasonable action by staff. So I handed in a complaint arguing just that case, that the judgement was too sever, something  

But after that complaint was handled and passed off, the staff agreeing on there being no misjudgment, the only other truth was more painful. I hoped I would be warned about unacceptable behaviour not so I can correct it before being banned, but more so because I genuinely  wouldnt want to be such a negative influence on the server. I was hiding behind the assumption that others would criticize my actions rather than me critically thinking about my own in detail. As Abos judgement was agreed on being correct by other staff the matter was pressing enough, and by that I must have been  very ignorant to the issue building up.

I dont want to bring such behavior into environments like Aurora ever again, I cant change what I like but its my responsibility in any community to be as good of a person as I can be.  And I would be gratefull to have a chance to prove that.

Why back to Aurora?
Aurora wasnt the first SS13 server I joined, but I flocked to it rather quickly once I got myself oriented in SS13 as a concept. I have played Aurora with different characters and over many years, there are alot of good memories and alot of things here that I enjoy and lack in other servers, such as the defined Lore and having HRP present together with the interesting situations that arise from Antagonistic involvement. My mind often wandered back to Aurora, also ofcourse because of my past mistakes here. After waiting a year and sorting my thoughts on the whole topics, I hope to be given one chance to show I can do better, but otherwise close this chapter for myself.

Edited November 28, 2021 by Faris

[Faris]

Escalation of punishment standards are for people we believe can redeem their conduct. My jump to the immediate permanent ban is because I’ve held no belief that you can redeem yourself. We reserve the right to escalate beyond the norm for cases of great significance. 
 

You are never allowed back here because you cannot be trusted. It wouldn’t be fair to the victims. 
 

Appeal denied.

Edited November 28, 2021 by Faris