[Retracted] Doc's Moderator Reapplication

[Doc]

Server Moderator Application

Basic Information

Byond Account: TheDocOct

Character Name(s): Bailey Lysithea, Melody Sobol, Nadia Kabiri

AI Name(s): (n/a)

Discord username + tag: Doc#7025

Age: 20

Timezone: Central US, UTC -6

When are you on Aurora?: Most weekdays, at least for a round or two, 8:00 PM CST or later. Intermittently throughout the weekend, depending on other obligations, usually totaling in five or six rounds each day.

 

Experience

How long have you played SS13?: Roughly 6 years now, across several stations.

How long have you played on Aurora: Four years? Depending on when exactly I first joined, four or five.

How much do you know about SS13 (Baystation build) game mechanics?: Quite a bit; Aurora has been my primary server for the majority of the years since I've began playing it, and I've bounced across most every department throughout my time here. My only weak spot is medical, specifically brainmed, to my knowledge.

Do you have any experience moderating for an SS13 server?: Two and a half years, give or take, on this very server.

Have you read through the criteria thread; https://forums.aurorastation.org/viewtopic.php?f=27&t=4198 - and believe that you mark off all the criteria?: Yes I have, and yes I do.

Have you ever been banned, and if so, how long and why?: Not from Aurora (I think I still have a clean note sheet?). I was sec-banned from Paradise for three days for shooting someone I believed to be a changeling, who wasn't, six years ago.

 

Personality

Why do you play SS13?: It's an incredibly unique experience as far as games go. For RP or otherwise, there's nothing that quite matches the same complexity and connectivity in its environment that Space does; or at least it doesn't seem like it. The vast majority of my time on SS13 is on HRP servers; the roleplaying experience offered by the game is unmatched, in my opinion, and it's what has brought me back after a breaks of months to up to a year in order to keep playing it.

Why do you play on Aurora?: Aurora's the best roleplaying community on SS13, hands down. No intent to put down any other servers, but I've played a number of them, and none of them have been able to sustain or, in my experience, even create the kind of immersive roleplaying stage that Aurora has managed, either through insufficient administration, a lack of attention to the maintenance of their lore and on-server setting, or whatever other reason.

What do moderators do?: Moderators are the backbone of the server; sorry, admins, and other staff. The vast majority of adminhelps go through moderators, and as a result they are by far most responsible for maintaining an enjoyable experience for the playerbase on a round-by-round basis; the method of doing so can vary, from investigating mechanical problems or questionable series of events to keep an important facet of the round rolling, to bwoinking and rectifying problem-player behavior that goes against the rules and compromises the enjoyment of other players, to just answering questions on mechanics, lore, or how to complete a certain task. Basically; help people.

What does it mean to be a moderator for our server?: Be present, be knowledgeable, and be helpful; three factors which feed into one another, and make sure you're capable of fulfilling the obligations mentioned above.

Why do you want to be a moderator?: I want to contribute to the server in the best way I believe I can. I map, I dabble in spriting, I've poked at the code once or twice, but development is not really for me. I've tried to take up the role of CCIA, and found it wasn't for me. After these few years, I've found that moderation is the role I'm best suited for in helping maintain, and improve, the server's environment; and I'd like to be able to contribute my efforts once again.

What qualities do you possess that would make you a good moderator?: I believe I'm good at working in a goal-oriented team dynamic; that being, I believe I'm good at working with others to get stuff done. I believe I have the patience and understanding to explain my position, or why I've made a decision to someone who might not understand the rules or a roleplaying setting at all, and I'd like to say that I was a communicative, responsive member of the modmin team when I was on it prior, and I don't believe those qualities have diminished in the near-year I've been away.

How well do you handle stress, anger, or insults?: I feel I have a solid grasp on ensuring that anger and personal feelings on a situation won't cloud my judgement or sway any decision I might make as a moderator; I'd like to believe I'm very capable of definitively separating my 'business' and 'personal' interactions with people, and to that extent I don't believe that anger or insults will be an issue. Stress is a problem I had to deal with quite a bit around the time I originally resigned, and based on my prior experiences as a team member I believe I'm fully capable of recognizing my limits and managing my time investment between the server and the rest of my live to ensure reasonable activity and avoid burn-out.

 

Anything Else You Want to Add:
I've had my gripes with the server over the years, and even a few since I've been back; but that said, I think it's doing the best it ever has been. I want to try and help maintain that course.

Also, I'm gay.

[Pratepresidenten]

-1 shittalking admins, would not hire.

 

But srs, you're a good egg, wouldnt mind having you back ?

[Garnascus]

I have a particular concern about you coming back to the team. I have never had a single problem with your skills as a moderator or as an administrator. They where always excellent. I do have a problem with your attitude towards me. Sometimes i felt you where making some pretty snide and mean comments directed at me spawning from your disagreements with me. I think it is pretty fair to say that you and i have had a large number of disagreements over various issues in the years. I do think at times you let your disagreements with me color your attitude when having a conversation. I do not have any logs or screenshots because i never gave it too much thought until now. It is just the general impression i have when recalling your past conduct. 

I want to be extremely clear that i am not demanding you "respect my authority" or anything cringe like that. I just want you to feel like if you have a disagreement with me we can have a reasonable conversation about it. I understand i always have the card of "im the boss" but you're on the team because i valued and i still value your opinion. 

[Doc]

Agreements or disagreements on staff issues aside, I can definitely understand the concern, and I'd like to apologize for how rude or mean-mannered I've been in the past. Just because I don't agree with your decisions or actions should not have any bearing on being respectful, and I'm sorry I haven't followed that line of thinking in the past; I'd like to say that if I do come back onto the team, I won't act the same way.

[Kintsugi]

I do not like to leave negative feedback. I think that as a person who is already known for being somewhat snide, leaving serious negative feedback just confirms that I am an individual who is innately negative. This is not the perception I want people to have of me. More importantly, I do not want to feel like an asshole. I might occasionally be a sardonic dick, but I do this all in good fun. I mean nothing serious when I tease somebody, and I am always the first to apologize when me and someone else have a disagreement. With that self-serving and egocentric header out of the way, I must say that I do not want to see Doc as a server moderator.

 

On 20/09/2020 at 19:00, Doc said:

Agreements or disagreements on staff issues aside, I can definitely understand the concern, and I'd like to apologize for how rude or mean-mannered I've been in the past. Just because I don't agree with your decisions or actions should not have any bearing on being respectful, and I'm sorry I haven't followed that line of thinking in the past; I'd like to say that if I do come back onto the team, I won't act the same way.

Today there was a canon event round where I did something, ICly, with IC justification, that Doc did not like. When I saw them discussing it in another discord, I said "I did that and I would do it again", and then began to explain my reasoning. Their response to me saying "I'd do it again, too", was this.

This is a mind-boggling response to me. To be frank, it upset me a lot. With IC justification, and OOC justification, I did something- Doc disliked it, and their response is to dryly state that things like this is why I am disliked by people within the community. If you have a problem with me, fine. I'd like to talk to you about it. But to me, this message is absolutely unacceptable behavior to be coming from someone who is a prospective moderator applicant, who just this Sunday said this:

On 20/09/2020 at 19:00, Doc said:

Just because I don't agree with your decisions or actions should not have any bearing on being respectful

 

[Doc]

I'm going to go ahead and retract this. I apologized personally.