An apology to all.

[HunterRS]

Hey guys, this is Hunter. And I know you are all thinking right now. "Oh he is doing this again let me just dislike him more" I want to tell you I dont do this because I want attention, I do this because I defend what i think and I defend my friends

I have been here, left, and came back. And it's still the same. Staff constantly picking on me with no one caring. I have to sit through constant insults about my age, my tastes and what i like to play.

But I play here to have fun and make friends. And right now, I'm not doing any of these things. I have had to deal with too much due to my past. And I've been told to wait. But... I've waited, and people still care about those.

I am here writing this on my phone in chemistry class for one reason. I want a second chance. I'm not asking you to forget, I'm asking you to not care about it.

I was down for a week when i heard I failed CCIA, I was down when I failed my head of staff. I was down when i lost everything i had. I was down whenever I notice what i do after, and I apologize. I Just have nowhere to throw my anger out. And no one wants to listen to me.

I just want people to know.... I am not who I am in those situations. I am just here to apologize and another chance.

Thank you, if you don't want me to give me another shot, I will stay quiet, I can't force you.

I'm sorry... hunter... signing out for the maybe last time.

[Superiorform]

Hunter, people who make fun of you for your age need to grow up themselves. I am 15, and I think I'm pretty well liked here.

[Skull132]

Can I post a bit of a more pungent point?

Your thread went without reply for almost a week (5 days). And while the forums can be slow, specially during the winter, the dramahounds will still find shit if there is shit to be found, and then light it ablaze. None of that happened. There is no evidence of anyone having a burning passion to hate you. As such, I further want to reinforce my point of, Hunter, no one cares. QED.

And I do not mean that from the perspective of, "Lol, it's Hunter, let's go and shit on his day/ignore his issues." Because myself, Ricky, FTraveller, Itzal, and probably a few more mods/mins who I do not know about have talked to you, reviewed the issues you have presented, and done what can be done. But the one thing we cannot do is make you feel not-persecuted when there's hardly enough evidence for you being persecuted in the first place. (And I actually say this with near full confidence, as I was one of the motherfuckers who's gone through a week and more worth of Discord logs in relation to this.)

You need to understand that shit you say and do has consequences.

You cannot simply ask for advice ad infinitum over the same topics, and expect people to be pleasant towards you as you flagrantly disregard or combat it with meek excuses. Best case scenario: they'll stop and ignore you. Worst case scenario: your failures will be pointed out to you and people will become irate. This is not an interaction we can stop until it exceeds a certain bounds, and yet you ask us to.

You cannot keep bothering people to review and post feedback on your applications when you create them in rapid succession without amending any of the issues raised in the previous ones. Again, best case scenario is that people simply ignore you and you get 0 feedback. Worst case, once again, your failures will be pointed out to you and you'll be told that you're annoying them.

And hey, even staff have a limit of durability. I've needed to explain the same basic concepts to you over the span of 2 years now, I think. And I am not even required to do this: it is my job to keep the peace, not play councilor and adviser. This applies to all of the other staff that you've talked to: beyond the duty-relevant reports you presented them to, a good few of them took the time out of their day to listen you out in full, and see if they can help. They did it because those motherfuckers are great people. But eventually, that line breaks and you'll be told that we cannot help you any further, because there legitimately is nothing else we can do.

Regarding age. Very few people care about the actual numeric value of your age. As long as it's above like, 12 or some shit, because below that, it's questionable as fuck. But that's neither here nor now. People, however, do care about how you act and carry yourself. The above-mentioned can all be summarized as "immature conduct". And unfortunately, they would not be wrong in doing so. It is up to you to square yourself away and showcase to people that you can be better than that. As a further point of staff not giving a fuck about your age, we've reviewed and trialed staff applications that fit well within your age bracket. Some have passed, some have failed, but it has almost always been the result of the applicant's conduct and merit, not their age.

Bottom line:

No one cares about you until you annoy them to fuck. At which point, they will annoy you back. That's how human communication runs.

If you want to fix this shit, keep your head down low, take advice as it is given, and try to follow through with it. If you encounter a legitimate issue, discuss it further. If you find yourself asking for the same advice again and again, stop, think about what you're doing wrong, and fix that. No one but you can actually solve these issues.

[Scheveningen]

I'm going to be incredibly blunt with you.

Before you started this downward spiral into "i'm sorry", you were only very much of a tiny annoyance. I think people could recognize you were annoying just for the sake of it since most people aren't stupid enough to not notice. Nobody really cared beyond that, and people expected you'd just grow up, not give a shit and keep on playing.

And then it started developing from there. Here's my opinion: You are acting too much like a victim. Acted. Whatever. You act as if you do not do any wrong and anyone who criticizes you is actually a fascist persecutor that wants you removed from the server.

But you've pretty much repeated this cycle over and over again to the point where nobody has to try to even engage you anymore to make you upset. It's gotten to the point where you're convinced that pity-partying is the only solution in countering people criticizing you, and in a way it's working, but you've basically gotten everyone to no longer care about your issues anymore because the only person it even affects is just you.

You managed to shut everyone else out on the basis of disagreeing with them so much regarding what they pointed out were flaws in your roleplay and your player behavior.

You acted like a drama queen and the community made the right response in just outright ignoring you and not bothering to "help" at this point. You hadn't really done anything to suggest you changed for the better.

You actually managed to get worse from my perspective. If you were able to exercise any degree of humility and at least think on what people say about you before responding to them thinking you have something to prove defending yourself... Well, a bit late to say now.

Goodbye. I hope you have better luck with the next community.

[UnknownMurder]

You logged on me when I needed you the most. You were my only Cyborg during Malfunctioning Round. You just logged because I make memes constantly.

Outcome: I had troubles getting the gimmick started because you left.

I don't know if you're sorry or not. Have fun in your next community.

[Ornias]

I was down for a week when i heard I failed CCIA, I was down when I failed my head of staff. I was down when i lost everything i had.

 

hunter , , , baby

video game,

its a

video game

[Scheveningen]

I was down for a week when i heard I failed CCIA, I was down when I failed my head of staff. I was down when i lost everything i had.

 

hunter , , , baby

video game,

its a

video game

 

If I could like this post I would.

[HunterRS]

Hunter, people who make fun of you for your age need to grow up themselves. I am 15, and I think I'm pretty well liked here.

 

Well, it's not just that.. it's a mix of everything. And im a fault for most of them...

Thank you skull, I'm going to just not give a fuck anymore. I'll try...

[Ornias]

Thank you skull, I'm going to just not give a fuck anymore. I'll try...

video,

game,,,

video game.

[Fiskap]

fuck video games tbh

[Dreviore]

Just do your thing, and ignore what others think about you.

Also don't whine too much, cause that's an easy way to get the people who actually like interacting with you; to stop.