[Denied] AmoryBlaine - Moderator application

[AmoryBlaine]

Basic Information
Byond Account: AmoryBlaine
Character Name(s):

Spoiler

AI Name(s): N/A
Discord username + tag: N/A
Age: 19
Timezone: Eastern Standard
When are you on Aurora?: Afternoons, Evenings, Overnight sometimes.

Experience
How long have you played SS13?: 3-4 years.
How long have you played on Aurora: 2-3 years
How much do you know about SS13 (Baystation build) game mechanics?: Security play, partial Engineering play, Surgical play, Robotics play, Command play, Roleplay.
Do you have any experience moderating for an SS13 server?: Yes. If you wish to know more, ask privately.
Have you read through the criteria thread; https://forums.aurorastation.org/viewtopic.php?f=27&t=4198 - and believe that you mark off all the criteria?: Yes.
Have you ever been banned, and if so, how long and why?: I was banned for poorplay, blowing up a merc shuttle with hostages without authorization from the Captain, or staff member.

Personality
Why do you play SS13?: Roleplay, Spriting experience.
Why do you play on Aurora?: It is the best of the available servers and I'm too ingrained to leave. I have some friends here.
What do moderators do?: Dictate rulings on player behavior in accordance with the rules, monitor player actions, act in assistance to administrators, and provide assistance to new players.
What does it mean to be a moderator for our server?: To enforce the HRP environment promoted by the community. The above.
Why do you want to be a moderator?: I do not trust the vast majority of the current staff team. I have been asked multiple times over the many instances of me railing against the staff team, to apply if I think it's so bad. That aside, I have experience with moderation and administration, and given the recent halting of my capacity to contribute in server development and the protest of many towards my artistic vision, I intent to contribute through the staff team until I am able to contribute to server development, and through then as well, as I have no intent to leave the staff team in the immediate future.
What qualities do you possess that would make you a good moderator?: I have a very clear intent to uphold the rules, my experience as moderator was good, I had no issues that were related to my duties as a staff member. I understand people make mistakes, I understand when those mistakes need to be met with punishment and when they don't. Despite my inclination to rip and tear into things I deem as not okay, this ends once I take on a position of authority. I am not going to abuse my position in any manner.
How well do you handle stress, anger, or insults?: I'm going to leave this up to feedback, and then respond to that, instead. You're all aware of my behavior and how much it fluctuates.

Anything Else You Want to Add:
N/A

Edited August 1, 2021 by ReadThisNamePlz
Requested by author.

[FreshRefreshments]

-1. 

When you use the term, "you're all aware of my behavior", I assume you mean we're all well aware of how terrible your attitude is. I have no faith you'll uphold yourself any better as a Moderator than you have as a Contributor, and if you've simply been acting terribly rude as a Contributor because it is "less important" than Moderator, then that seems iffy for its own reason. 

A moderator should be known in the community as someone who has a great attitude. You aren't known for this, and anyone who looks into your history as little as your comment selection will see the contrary. 

I think you should take some time to show the community an improvement in your behavior and conduct before applying for something as people-driven as a Moderator. 

[AmoryBlaine]

4 minutes ago, FreshRefreshments said:

-1. 

When you use the term, "you're all aware of my behavior", I assume you mean we're all well aware of how terrible your attitude is. I have no faith you'll uphold yourself any better as a Moderator than you have as a Contributor, and if you've simply been acting terribly rude as a Contributor because it is "less important" than Moderator, then that seems iffy for its own reason. 

A moderator should be known in the community as someone who has a great attitude. You aren't known for this, and anyone who looks into your history as little as your comment selection will see the contrary. 

I think you should take some time to show the community an improvement in your behavior and conduct before applying for something as people-driven as a Moderator. 

As a contributor I've been very clear in my goals, and very open to communication- more so, I rely on communication and heavily promote all the threads I make, on all the changes I intend to bring. What instances within my career so far as contributor have gone without change as requested? So far the only complaint unanswered is "You're making everything brown, or dark." I don't know what to tell you. That is blatantly false, and you can look at the sprites I've provided as evidence. Frankly a large chunk of the pushback is that I'm changing things at all, or that it's not specifically to X Y Z players aesthetic ideal, while A B C players are fine with it, or provide actual suggestions, rather than just trying to make me throw out everything to keep with the old colours.

I am not a hard person to see through. I am very direct. Does that mean it is easy to see when I'm angry? Yes. The same is applied to every other emotion. I'm never going to go behind your back, I'm going to go directly to you, and bring my grievances up so they can be settled. Does it get heated, yes. Do I apologize if I'm wrong, yes. Do I expect you to apologize if you're wrong, yes? I treat everyone as an equal to me, and recognize my faults as well as others.  I do not enjoy having enemies here, or anywhere, though it is a reality I am slowly coming to accept as many people do not appreciate the direct route I take when I feel I've been slighted, and others do not directly communicate when they feel I have slighted them.

[FreshRefreshments]

I never said you weren't clear. But you get so heated and refuse to budge on things the entire community will be dealing with.

The requests, were for you to stop desaturating everything so much. The requests were for things that had a logical reason for why they were the way they are. But that doesn't matter, because this isn't a feedback thread for your sprites. 

This is about you being a moderator. Something that I think you are unfit to do, with your manner being "direct". There is a monumental difference between being clear, and being rude. "Brutal honesty" is just an excuse to have a shitty attitude, and is not a redeeming quality. It is incredibly easy to see when you become angry, and it seems like that's fairly often. 

[Bygonehero]

Amory is direct, and he doesn't hide himself and what he means. Speaking from experience, the ability to piss off people who speak to you is part and parcel through cutting through their bullshit, but that being said, anyone who doesn't know amory wouldnt know this, and it could be disparaging to new players to experience an out of the box aggressive mod. 

34 minutes ago, FreshRefreshments said:

-1. 

When you use the term, "you're all aware of my behavior", I assume you mean we're all well aware of how terrible your attitude is. I have no faith you'll uphold yourself any better as a Moderator than you have as a Contributor, and if you've simply been acting terribly rude as a Contributor because it is "less important" than Moderator, then that seems iffy for its own reason. 

A moderator should be known in the community as someone who has a great attitude. You aren't known for this, and anyone who looks into your history as little as your comment selection will see the contrary. 

I think you should take some time to show the community an improvement in your behavior and conduct before applying for something as people-driven as a Moderator. 

You of all people should know that sometimes telling people how it is without reguards to their feelings is required. Cloak and dagger amongst the community, the secret hatreds and cliques, the circles within circles exist, so it would be refreshing to have someone who doesnt do that.

For my part with amory, I would be willing to accept the good with the bad, and believe they should at least get a trial. 

[zyymurgy]

-1.

Amory seems to enjoy nothing more than screaming at people. In fact, when I am noticing Amory in general_chat, it is usually because he is in the middle of a screaming argument.

About 10-ish months ago I decided to take a break from ss13 entirely because I was tired of the screaming arguments and bad attitudes I saw displayed constantly. Amory and Zelm's participation in the screaming fights surrounding the implementation of Departmental Security is what drove me away from Aurora specifically. The way they would just NOT stop, even when told directly to. The way the arguments would continue for literal hours. And now it's coming back because Departmental Sec is being worked on again, and the screaming fights in that thread are threatening to spill into general_chat again.

Recently Amory and I had a fight because he was baiting someone in general_chat, and I tried to make a joke to defuse the situation. He came into my DMs to yell at me very harshly for interfering with his baiting this person. He told me, paraphrased, "I know when the admins give out strikes. I was trying to get him to say something that would get them struck. I was not in danger of being struck because I know when admins give strikes." This is unacceptable behavior from a normal user; if a moderator did this, I would be very very very concerned.

In addition, Amory is allergic to criticism. What I mean by this is, he just doesn't believe it. He refuses to believe it. And he gets mad if you insist on it. Every time I have tried to criticize his development work, he had said things like "It doesn't look like a problem to me" and "This is fine" no matter how clearly or concisely I try to explain. Basically telling me, and others, that we are wrong for thinking there is something that could be changed for the better in his work. He has said he literally cannot have fun with ss13 unless his sprites are put into the game. This is concerning to me because it shows he is working on Aurora for himself, not for the community, and in fact, he disregards the community's opinions. When someone suggests how he could improve his work, he ignores them - or yells at them. Recently criticism of his work was brought up in general_chat and he did these behaviors to more than just myself, so I know it's not just a "me" problem.

Amory does not have the temperament to moderate Aurora, or any server.

[Faris]

4 minutes ago, zyymurgy said:

Recently Amory and I had a fight because he was baiting someone in general_chat, and I tried to make a joke to defuse the situation. He came into my DMs to yell at me very harshly for interfering with his baiting this person. He told me, paraphrased, "I know when the admins give out strikes. I was trying to get him to say something that would get them struck. I was not in danger of being struck because I know when admins give strikes." This is unacceptable behavior from a normal user; if a moderator did this, I would be very very very concerned.

I really hope this is not true.

[Omicega]

Aren't you the guy who stalked one-- or was it two? -- people on CM really hard because you thought they were girls in real life?

Somehow it doesn't surprise me that you'd be unstable in general and otherwise thoroughly unsuited for a mod position.

[Itanimulli]

Ahah. Ahaha.

 

No.

Perhaps shooting for developer (sprites and such) would be a better idea, but moderator? Surely this is jest.

 

You fly off the handle at the smallest of things, you become agitated over even smaller things, and in general lack the kind of attitude required to be a mod in the first place. When people disagree with you, you become incredibly spiteful.

 

That's not a good fit for a mod team, imo.

[AmoryBlaine]

3 minutes ago, Aboshedab said:

I really hope this is not true.

This was specifically about EvilBrage insulting me- one of many instances- and nothing being done because apparently it's okay to berate me as long as he doesn't specifically use derogatory names. Yes, I was really hoping he'd get in shit for it, since he was dancing around calling me a retard directly. I don't feel there's anything wrong with trying to egg someone on when they've already made their intent and opinion clear, but are purposely trying to obfuscate it so they don't get in trouble.

10 minutes ago, Itanimulli said:

Perhaps shooting for developer (sprites and such) would be a better idea, but moderator? Surely this is jest.

 

You fly off the handle at the smallest of things, you become agitated over even smaller things, and in general lack the kind of attitude required to be a mod in the first place. When people disagree with you, you become incredibly spiteful.

When people disagree with me, I expect them to actually argue for their side, given nearly all instances where I argue are over opinion, rather than facts. What the proper colours are for a sprite, ect, what I think should have been a ruling. I even make a point to outline that I accept staff ruling, and that I'm more interested in arguing over whether that should be where we hold ourselves.

[Kryostro]

-1

You're not fit for conversation with people that don't hold your ideas, and I've seen many situations and examples in which I won't name for privacy sake where you haven't shown yourself to be a decent person in the community, so I very highly would detest against you holding any form of position in the administration, make some changes with your conduct and I'll change this to a +1, but until then, no.

[geeves]

You were awful to me, my friends, and the rest of my team. After I tried to comfort you after one of your outbreaks, you just brushed me off.

Then you did it again. And again, and again.

The fact that you're still on Aurora astounds me, and that you have the gall to apply for moderator with the attitude you have blows my mind.

I like you when you're normal, man. I really do. I just think you need to get some help.

But not here. Not after the shit you pulled.

[Skull132]

As someone who uses the, "I'm blunt about shit," line on a few occasions. There is a difference:

• Between being blunt about things and not knowing when to compromise.
• Between being blunt about things and not knowing when to back out.
• Between being blunt about things and being unreasonable to an excess.

The general experience from the development team has been that you are all of the items listed above.

While yes, "It might all be about opinions [on how to do development, which is rarely objective]," and, "It might only be development," it's an amazing showcase of character none the less. What's more, I do believe that even with those excuses, your attempts to work with other developers have well demonstrated your lack of capacity for basic teamwork.

[ReadThisNamePlz]

I'd like to know, before giving any sort of feedback, or my honest opinion.

You have applied twice, since I've been staff. This is your third time.

Each time, you retracted your application. Are you going to do it this time as well? 

Edit: I'm also the person who will be processing this application. 

Edited November 9, 2019 by ReadThisNamePlz

[ReadThisNamePlz]

We're not moving forward with an interview. I will explain why.
 

• You have a long history of explosive, hostile outbursts. Especially with other staff members.. You have not improved on this at all.
   
• I don't think you're exactly ready to be a moderator here, you need to improve on your behavior, and conduct, and you have to maintain good behavior, etc before we can even consider you for a moderation position.
   
• The general consensus of the staff team is no.
   
• We're also full on moderation staff.

Don't take this as an insult, just take it as fuel to improve yourself. Have a good one!

Application Denied.