Snake,
First thanks for getting the logs or what little logs are there.
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My "actual motive" for coming back is to at least view what's going on in the community, and chat with people. Preferably not about politics especially since the removal of the thunderdome. As I've been roleplaying a lot more on the server due to having some more freetime after moving positions at work. I'd like to be able to receive status updates about roundstart so I can catch the lobby, etc.
2)
My other accounts weren't deleted, they were banned for doxxing pedophile/ MAP discords on my twitter. I've been pretty mad at Discord for the past few months. Regarding why I requested that lore developments be documented somewhere other than the Discord is because there should be official documentation on either the wiki or the forums for lore. This was great and was being used but here recently I've seen basically a 2-3 sentencer with a "check the discord" thrown at the end.
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My previously, hilariously-offensive behavior was hilariously offensive. As Skull pointed out in the screenshot above I have a habit of being a contrarian regarding political discussions. Especially within the conversation that got me banned, there was a time where I was moderator in which in-character racism was permitted and not so much as blinked at if it had legitimate roleplay development. Aka, no 'Tyrone Biggums' character smacking their lips, but an actual developed character that's a frontiersman that is wary of other races and species, card-carrying ATLAS member, and even using the N-word was permitted to an extent. I was pointing out the flaw in the system that there was no policy statement on this and therefore it resides upon staffmember opinion, as I had with other rules that were based on the staffmember's opinion.
Re: you calling me a racist xenophobic transphobic womanizer antisemite--- I'm not racist outside of my use of the R word in political discussion of the word, similar to how Garn has used it in the past. If you determine that to be racist, whatever. Transphobia I've never done anything more than dispute specific studies, and I'm friends with a lot of transgender or not exactly "binary" people. Womanizer? I don't recall talking too much about women beyond political discussions such as glass ceiling etc. Antisemite? ????? I don't know where this claim is from, I'm jewish racially.
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Recently towards Myazaki, I believe I've been constructive or simply providing updates on whether or not I like changes. Are you referring to Vision Cones shitposting on my own status page?
Lord Fowl I can't speak to much but I believe that was handled in a complaint.
I have no issue with developers, and I do not believe I've ever attacked a developer as a person, but rather their content developed or simply voicing my distaste for it.
Going back to your "do you plan to apologize" bit....
Yeah, I do apologize. I perhaps should make that more clear for toxicity that occurred as a result of political discussions or being a general asshat for contrarian / polemicist. I think that avoiding anything political in the channels and keeping things to DMs with those who want to discuss things personally solves this.
About being mean to developers, I believe I already apologized for taking things too far w/ Lord fowl.
Shitposting about vision cones on my wall or saying "I still don't like this" on the feedback after new PRs are merged I don't think is too abusive to Myazaki, but if they're offended I'll lighten up I guess. First time I'm hearing about them or anyone caring about my statements on vision cones, so again- apologies.
I know it's only been a year or so, and I do hate to pull the "I've matured" card that I would routinely strike down as a moderator on appeals or tickets. And karma would say that I eat crow in this appeal, but I am still making it in the offchance that chances are given here. Since then, I've finished college, attained many certifications, bought a house, went from internship to achieve a fulltime salary position, and fell in love a bit more. I do think that I've matured a bit more than I have, and some of my political ideas have changed. Yes, I believe I'm still a polemicist on a few topics, but realize now that 80% of people (especially within this global community) do not conform to my worldview. So it's pointless to argue or debate those things where I believe I would previously have gone all in on.